All You Want to Do is Live
He saunters out of his house and into the backyard
wearing the ragged plaid wool jacket he always wore
this season of the year, with its comforting warmth
his mind filled with details he wanted to forget
but his body going through its familiar routines
inspecting the rose bushes, not yet in bloom,
evergreens a haven for birds and squirrels,
and his Japanese lace leaf maple, his pride.
He smiles thinking of all the time he will devote to
his lawn, his garden with its multitude of plants
of varying color, planned out lovingly over the years.
A rabbit scampers across the lawn, a rabbit
which is undoubtedly an enemy of so much
that grows in spring, summer, and fall but
now full-bodied and heavy showing the signs
it will not be long before she gives birth.
He notices the soft coat, the quick gait,
the alert eyes that meet his for only an instant
but are filled with fear of the man who is her enemy in
this garden which she considers her home.
His eyes fill with tears as he turns his gaze
elsewhere, thinking of birth, life, its struggles
for all living things, the black-eyed susans
destroyed by the rabbits in their desire to
stay alive, the small rabbits who will bound
happily innocent soon enough though the
war will be waged again against them.
The man wipes away the tears from his
eyes with the sleeve of his wool jacket
trying to be strong, not to feel sad knowing
that what is not yet born will not live long;
and how hard it must be to be born into a
world where you are the enemy though
all you want to do is just live.
To live, yes, all you want is to live!